I’ve changed. Flash back to August at the H9 25-miler. I remember practically shaking in my boots at the prospect of spending an unknown number of hours running 25 miles on trails. Everyone around me was so casual about it that I had to wonder what was wrong with me for being nervous. Flash forward to the night before the GUTS FatAss 50K. I checked the weather report and saw that there was a 30-50% chance of rain every hour of the day. I was looking at 31 miles of running unfamiliar trails, most likely in the rain, and I wasn’t nervous at all. I have changed! I guess now that I’ve done the 50 miler and spent nearly 14 hours on my feet, that fear of the unknown is gone. If I can do 14 hours, I can run 6-8 hours in my sleep. What a relief!
I headed to SweetWater Creek State Park on a warm overcast morning with very little trepidation about the distance. The weather here has been crazy lately bouncing from freezing cold to T-Shirt weather. Race day was a T-Shirt kind of January day with highs in the mid-50′s predicted. I wore running pants, a short-sleeved shirt, and a new jacket. I expected rain but it was going to be warm. I wanted something lightweight and this Spring jacket (bought on mega-clearance of course) fit the bill. I knew the course was a loop with aid every 6 miles, but I still wore my huge Nathan Hydration vest rather than carry a handheld. I carried a handheld for short runs during the summer and it was fine. I just really hate carrying stuff in my hands and I certainly didn’t want to hold anything for 6-8 hours.
I arrived in just enough time to use the restroom, grab my number, and join the small crowd at the starting line. I saw so many familiar faces from other races. I’m not the most outgoing person, but I really appreciate that the ultra community is quite small. People are more willing to chat at any point of the race. They remember that you gave them a thumbs up when they were struggling on the trail in a race. It’s really cool.
I’ve never run at SweetWater before and wasn’t sure of the course so I had no idea of the elevation profile. I knew the infamous “Top Of The World” and Powerline climbs were excluded from the race so I figured it wouldn’t be that bad. I was looking at this as a good training run/scouting mission. I have a couple of races at SweetWater park coming up and I always feels more comfortable having done some running on the actual trail.
The course was 5 6-ish mile loops and this was to be my first time tackling a long loop course. Loops are good because aid (and bathrooms!) were never going to be too far away. Loops are bad because I would have 4 opportunities to quit the race before reaching 50K. Every time I run the Atlanta Track Club’s Resolution Run 10K (which is two 5K loops), I find myself reluctant to go for the second lap and that is only a 3 mile loop!
I viewed the first loop as a chance to learn the lay of the land. This loop was to be a little longer to allow us to spread out a bit. I never like the beginning of races because there are just so many people jumbled up together. I feel (completely self-inflicted) pressure to maintain a certain pace. I usually don’t fall victim to that pressure and willingly let faster people pass me, but I just find the whole thing a little stressful. I am more comfortable when things have settled down and everyone has fallen in line.
The weather was warm. I was ready to remove my very light jacket in favor of short sleeves after a mile. The course was decent. There was a little bit of everything on the mostly groomed double-track: dirt trail, rocky gravel road, rooty lakeside running, rushing river running and stair climbing. There were a couple of hills and a some rolling terrain but nothing awful. In many ways, I am glad that my first ultra (Duncan Ridge) and ultra-ish (H9) experiences featured the Coosa climb at Vogel State Park. That climb is so obnoxious that anything else doesn’t seem that bad in comparison.
I finished the first loop in 1:25 and noted the distance as 7.25 miles. I had decided in advance to better track the time I waste at aid stations because I know this is an area where I need improvement. I was in and out of the aid station with peanut butter pretzel nuggets (yum!) in hand in 1 minute flat.
The field spread out a lot in the second loop and I enjoyed this lap a lot more. I was thinking that this loop would be closer to 6 miles in length since the first loop included extra mileage. No dice. I circled back to the aid station in 1:22 and 6.9 miles. I realized that meant the course would be “long” but I didn’t think too much of it at the time. My aid station stop this lap cost me 4 minutes, but that included a pit stop at the restroom. I figured I should go then before the issue became pressing. I was drinking a good bit of water because it was warm outside. It was perfect running weather (well, a little colder would have been nice) with overcast skies but unseasonably warm for January.
I felt great going into the third loop which was unexpected. I was worried that loops might be boring but the terrain was varied enough that I didn’t hate the experience. At this point, the course felt like an old friend and I knew exactly how I wanted to tackle certain parts. That makes for efficient running which is always a good thing. I started to anticipate a really good race and hope for a 7:15-ish hour and change finish. I didn’t really have time goals going in but this seemed like a time that could make me proud. I finished Mystery Mountain Marathon in 6:33 so completing a nearly 35 mile race only 45 minutes slower would be awesome.
Just when things seemed to be going well they turned to crap. In spite of wearing a huge 2L hydration pack on my back, I didn’t give much consideration to the need to refill said pack. I was drinking a lot more water due to the warmer temperatures and didn’t consider that I should refill earlier. 3.5 miles into the third loop I tried to draw water and the flow was slow. A half mile later, I had the sinking realization that the flow wasn’t slow – the well was dry. I was out of water on a warm day and I’m the type of person who needs to drink a lot. I felt so dumb. Really, really stupid.
I instantly started to try to formulate a damage control plan. I knew I had to slow down the pace a bit to conserve energy. I also decided to stop fueling since all of the stuff I had on me like Shot Bloks, Sports Beans, and GU require water to work properly and I feared an upset stomach. I had recently taken an S-Cap due to the warmer temps and I figured I was covered as far as salt. I planned to hold off on taking another one for a while since I would be dehydrated when I made it back to the aid station. I don’t know if this was the smartest plan, but I went with my instincts and training runs are to be used as a learning experience, right?

No water for you!
I was running along a rooty lake path when I realized I was out of water. The terrain there was a bit wet, rocky and slippery so slowing down didn’t piss me off because I could barely run anyway. What pissed me off was running alongside a rushing river with a bone-dry throat knowing I couldn’t get any water. I was also annoyed because I found the last 3 miles not as runnable as the preceding miles. There was a big staircase to climb and some hills. These miles would take some time to complete. I estimated that I was going to face 45 minutes without water. Ugh!
That was a hard 45 minutes and it did indeed take me about that long to complete the loop. I felt fine physically except for a dry mouth, but I was so stressed out about the rest of the race. Every time another runner passed me on the loop, I wanted to jack them for their water bottle to try and “save” my race. It is really hard to catch up on hydration and fueling once you get behind. I was also aware that in the process of getting on top of both variables, I was going to feel really crappy. I was so angry at myself for stupidly putting myself in this position.
The third loop had taken me 1:34 to complete which is way, way off from the other loops. I was so relieved to get something to drink that I didn’t care. Upon my arrival at the aid station, I knocked back two cups of PowerAde in short order. I stayed at the station for 4 minutes getting my pack refilled, drinking some fluid, and stocking up on food. I walked away from the aid station with a belly full of drink and a handful of pretzels to munch.
I didn’t feel so great when I pull away from the aid station. I was tired and my stomach wasn’t settled. I broke out my ginger candies which are supposed to help reduce nausea. I was walking and it was so hard to muster up the energy to run even though the course was flat and runnable at that point. I forced myself to do intervals of 1 min walking and 1 min running and that worked for a while. I still felt like crap and that minute of running felt like 10 minutes. I vowed to keep moving though, even if I had to walk. I knew the bad time would pass once I got my body back into balance.
I spotted the long-haired running man, Aaron, and his girlfriend ahead of me. They were running strong and left me in the dust. I didn’t even try to keep up. It was taking way longer than I imagined to feel good again. I had only covered 2.5 miles of the loop and I was still moving painfully slowly and feeling yucky. I started to seriously entertain thoughts of not completing the whole 50K at this point. The course was long. Once I completed the 4th loop, I would have covered 28 miles. Was I really in the mood for another 7 miles?
I spotted Jenn around this time. We end up doing a lot of the same races and Jenn is usually about 15 minutes ahead of me. I often use her as my “rabbit” because if I run into her that means I’m probably going a little too fast. If I was dragging and had managed to catch up to her she must have been having issues too. We ran together for a while because our paces were pretty evenly matched. We were both taking a wait and see approach to completing the next loop. She eventually ran ahead and I didn’t see her again.
It took way longer than I thought it would to start to feel better again in spite of my efforts to refuel and rehydrate. I could only manage to walk/jog the first 3.5 miles of the loop. I finally started to feel better 4 miles in. Ironically enough, things started to turn around for me in the same spot near the river where they fell apart in the first place! I was excited to feel up to running again but I also had it in the back of my mind that maybe it just wasn’t my day for this race. My mental willpower was shot and I didn’t think it was coming back. If the course were really 31 miles, I could have sucked it up. However, I just didn’t feel like doing another 7 miles. I was 90% resolved to bail after 4 loops at that point.
I was mad at myself for messing for making a stupid mistake, but I really didn’t feel all that bad about possibly bailing early. I’ve already run a 50K and a 50 miler. I have nothing left to prove to myself. I decided right then and there to call it a day at the aid station and enjoy the rest of the loop knowing that I was home free.

I totally missed this building set right in the water on every loop but my last.
I ran on but slowed the pace enough to enjoy the scenery. I stopped and took pictures. I smiled and encouraged the other runners I saw heading out for another loop. I hit the marathon distance at 5:45 and I celebrated the fact that I covered the distance nearly 45 minutes faster than I had at Mystery Mountain back in October. I started to feel great even though I reminded myself that I could always reconsider at the aid station.
As I was covering the final portion of the last mile to the aid station, it started to rain – hard. That did it for me. I was 100% done with this. Seven more miles in the rain? If it had been raining at the beginning my attitude would have been different, but I was in no mood for a downpour at this point. No thanks! My final time for the 4 loops was 6:16:57. The last loop took me 1:54 to complete. I told you it sucked compared to the other loops!
I chatted for a minute with familiar faces from other races, Dan and Jason. Then I went into the group shelter to warm up and choke down some chili. I’m never really hungry after very long races, but refueling in that 30-60 minute window following such an effort is critical to recovery, so I try to eat a little something. It was nice to have an absolute feast available after the race even though I wasn’t hungry. GUTS was having a chili cook-off contest so food was plentiful. The vegetarian chili and the chicken chili that I sampled were both very good!
Every training run or race is a learning experience and I’m glad I made a dumb mistake during this run instead of a more crucial run. I will definitely be more aware of my hydration situation going forward. This is the second time that I allowed this to happen. It is better to stop and go through the hassle of taking off my vest than to rush off from the aid station nearly empty. I wish my hydration vest had an easy way to gauge fullness but since it doesn’t I’ll have to be smarter about such things.
I also learned that I should probably avoid loop courses for critical races. I don’t feel bad at all about not going out for that 5th loop. However, I don’t like having the option to quit so readily available. You can always quit a trail race at any aid station, but there is something more sobering about having to wait for a volunteer to give you a ride of shame back to the start. I remember having to make this choice at the H9 with 10K remaining. Knowing that I’d have to be assisted back was a big factor in not quitting that race.
Even with the self-inflicted issues I experienced during this race, I managed to not come in DFL compared to my peers! That’s an absolute win. Of the 16 racers who completed 4 loops, I was #7. I’m a mid-packer once again. Finally!
Even though I didn’t complete the race and “Half-Assed” it, I had a great day of running. I felt really strong during the first few loops. I saw so many familiar faces and met some cool new people – some who were doing this race as their first ultra. I got to run in a new park and get a small taste of what’s to come in the SweetWater 50K (crossing that raging river – eek!). I can’t really ask for anything more.
And that’s the story of my first DNF.