I really, really, really didn’t want to be in this position again. When I got pregnant with Peri, I had high hopes of not gaining a ton of weight. I really wanted to do better. I wanted to be one of those people who can only gain 25-35 pounds. I did not want to see 200 anything on my scale at the end.
I was up a bit from normal in weight due to 100-miler training and my inability to figure out how to eat through that. I would say I was 160 when I got pregnant. I weighed about 218 on my scale the day I delivered Peri. I gained 58 pounds. Ugh!
I didn’t go hogwild like I did last time, but I eventually gave up that “diet” calorie counting mentality and just ate pretty normally. I have to wonder if I’m just one of those people who is going to gain a lot of weight during pregnancy no matter what. Fun fact: My mom, who was very thin and never had to watch her weight, gained 60lbs with both her pregnancies. Maybe it’s genetic?
Whatever the case, I started my postpartum recovery at 218 pounds. Within a week of delivery I weighed…211. Peri weighed 7lbs. I lost her and that’s about it! The lowest number I ever saw on my scale during the first 4 weeks of maternity leave was 204. A measely 12 pound loss after dropping a 7lb baby + placenta! I lost 17 pounds after the birth of my son without doing anything. This was disappointing.
At about 5 weeks postpartum, I purchased a BodyMediaFit armband because I really wanted to know how many calories I burned each day instead of just guessing. I started to make minor adjustments in my diet and track calories a bit even though I wasn’t hard-core dieting. Also (possibly?) notable is that 1) I started to exercise and 2) I started to take the minipill for birth control.
Something magically horrible started to happen – I started to *gain* weight. I can admit that in my newborn raising, breastfeeding all the time haze, I was not paying much attention to my diet. I wasn’t eating fast food every day but my diet was far from clean. I rarely had my wits about me enough to eat 3 squares a day. If anything, I would say I was undereating.
No matter how it happened, the scale started to rise and my 204 turned into 208 into 211 pounds. WTH? Isn’t breastfeeding supposed to make the weight fall off? Here I was barely off my delivery weight!
It was time to go back to work (6 week postpartum) before I knew it and nothing much had changed. I think I even gained a few more pounds because I saw 214 on the scale at least once. This was depressing to say the least. I wasn’t expecting (and didn’t really deserve) miracle weight loss, but I was hoping the universe would throw me a bone. I got the birth I wanted and breastfeeding is going well this time (fingers crossed!). I suppose it would be too much to ask for the pregnancy weight to dissipate with ease.
I am participating in the Burn The Fat, Feed The Muscle Summer Challenge. I purchased the book many years ago and the common sense advice there always resonated with me. The challenge is free since I paid for the book so I figured it would be a good way to get focused. The challenge started on 6/12 with a baseline weigh-in and pictures. Why do my pictures look the same as the ones I took 4 months postpartum with my son?!? I am starting over from Ground Zero with the weight loss again.
The only saving grace in this whole mess (I guess) is that I weigh more in now than I did 4 months postpartum with my son, but I look the same and my measurements are a bit lower. I must have gained a lot of muscle in the years after having my son! This means that it is possible that I could settle at a higher body weight than before but still acheive the look I want. Anything that means that I could have less work to do is fine with me! I’m not very particular about a number on the scale if my body fat level is acceptable to me and I can fit into my old clothes.
So Peri is 15 weeks old today and I feel like I need to lose 60lbs to reach a happy weight. I’m open to re-evaluating that number as I go along, but 150lbs sounds nice for now. 130-135lbs sounds like an ultimate goal that I won’t even dream about right now. My short-term goal is to get into “onederland” by the end of the BFFM challenge ending in September.
I’m part of a team in the challenge and we weigh in on Wednesdays. Expect the ever popular “Weigh-In Wednesdays” to make an appearance here!